I guess this is the time of the year that most people look back on the year gone by. Its been a crazy one. I wonder what they will say in 10 years time about 2009. The year of Irelands worst recession, Michael Jackson died, the floods, the church scandals. Im sure there is a load of otehr things I cant think of but it wasnt a quiet year.
Certainly not for me in anyway. Work was crazy, my grandads stroke, crashing my beloved ford ka, the break up, my spiritulal wondering(not a lot of people know, in fact i dont think anyone did but I had a major crisus of fate this year) all things wear on the soul. I guess if life diddnt have its problems we would all die of bordom!
Personel refelection can really set you thinking abiout what you want to do with yourself. I find myself awake at 3 in the moring planning what to do with myself. Im gona make some changes for 2010. Have to tap back into my creative streak. I remember a younger red headed chap who diddnt believe in "i cant" and "i dont have time"
Time for some changes
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Thursday, November 12, 2009
A think back
Right its time to relax a bit! I guess since the break up I have been pushing myself too much! Its funny how people deal with problems. I guess my own way is to keep going until I'm stopped or I fall down. I think I just fell! ha
Its hard to get into the details! Being away from a person you spent an amazing amount of time with is something that I wouldn't recommend to anyone! Its amazing how you can know a person inside out like that. Hates, loves and all that.
Being in love is a beautiful thing. Falling out. No glory there Im afraid!
We all carry our own baggage.
Its hard to get into the details! Being away from a person you spent an amazing amount of time with is something that I wouldn't recommend to anyone! Its amazing how you can know a person inside out like that. Hates, loves and all that.
Being in love is a beautiful thing. Falling out. No glory there Im afraid!
We all carry our own baggage.
Saturday, November 7, 2009
Speed travell
Airports are pretty lonely places. Well if you are travelling on your own they sure are. Seeing crowds of people and couples gave me a bit of a pang and the need for some company.
I think that ireland is the only place where you can have breakfast with a complete stranger! There I was minding my own business and along comes a randomer and sits down right in the seat next to me. I laughed a bit about it and noticed that there are several empty seats and tables next to me, in front of me and behind me. I guess im not the only lonely traveller. When I had finished my self invented sandwich I said "It was wonderful having breakfast with you" I really was glad for the company. She laughed and that was the entirety of our verbal interaction. Its strange that when I needed some company(even the silent but slurppy type) it was magicaly there! I guess someone is looking out for me after all!
Right I have a plane to get on, fresh coffey to drink and a massive book to read and not in that order!
PS. my gate number is D69! I wonder is that a good sign!! ha
Todays song is: The Dog Days are Over by Florence and the Machine
I think that ireland is the only place where you can have breakfast with a complete stranger! There I was minding my own business and along comes a randomer and sits down right in the seat next to me. I laughed a bit about it and noticed that there are several empty seats and tables next to me, in front of me and behind me. I guess im not the only lonely traveller. When I had finished my self invented sandwich I said "It was wonderful having breakfast with you" I really was glad for the company. She laughed and that was the entirety of our verbal interaction. Its strange that when I needed some company(even the silent but slurppy type) it was magicaly there! I guess someone is looking out for me after all!
Right I have a plane to get on, fresh coffey to drink and a massive book to read and not in that order!
PS. my gate number is D69! I wonder is that a good sign!! ha
Todays song is: The Dog Days are Over by Florence and the Machine
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Lasyness
Yeah I got lazy like I knew I would.
Job search went down hill! Had a few interviews and and offer or 2 but nothing fantastic! Bloody work screwing me over again. Should be on holidays this week but work sucks!
Started reading some Steven king books! Wasnt sure about them but the Dark Tower series is freaking awesome! Also started doing some creative writing and Im thinking of working on the story I have a little. I know this is a very short blog entry but its bloody late and Im in no mood to think of anything much to say!
Check out my story
Darko
Job search went down hill! Had a few interviews and and offer or 2 but nothing fantastic! Bloody work screwing me over again. Should be on holidays this week but work sucks!
Started reading some Steven king books! Wasnt sure about them but the Dark Tower series is freaking awesome! Also started doing some creative writing and Im thinking of working on the story I have a little. I know this is a very short blog entry but its bloody late and Im in no mood to think of anything much to say!
Check out my story
Darko
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Jobs r' us
Didn't get the redundancy package I was looking for. That kinda balls things up a bit but Im still here and Im still going. I really made myself not build my hopes up about this route because I always knew that it would be a slim chance.
So it looks like Im working and looking for a job at the same time. Which is hard because I dont even have time to swear in my current position.
Found a great site for job searching(for Irish people) - www.dole.ie
It takes a lot of the Irish job sites and compiles a list of all the jobs available at that time in your county.
Was thinking a little bit today about positivity. Its strange. I was being very openly positive about getting my redundancy but it still didn't seem to influence my predicament one bit. Im always told to think positive and manifest it yourself. Is that more towards positively working yourself into a situation i.e doing the work yourself. It comes down to chance when its other peoples decision. How we influence that person is the key me thinks!
If you influence the person positively you should get a positive reaction right? Riddle me this....
What if that person is an asshole?
Fighting fire with fire never works....apparently. Fighting fire with positivity is difficult. Im aware that the person is an AH and Im aware that the person needs to be tip toed around but I still want results damn it!
I gotta think more about how to tackle this person positively. Il post more soon.
They re-released all the Beatles albums....Awesome!
So it looks like Im working and looking for a job at the same time. Which is hard because I dont even have time to swear in my current position.
Found a great site for job searching(for Irish people) - www.dole.ie
It takes a lot of the Irish job sites and compiles a list of all the jobs available at that time in your county.
Was thinking a little bit today about positivity. Its strange. I was being very openly positive about getting my redundancy but it still didn't seem to influence my predicament one bit. Im always told to think positive and manifest it yourself. Is that more towards positively working yourself into a situation i.e doing the work yourself. It comes down to chance when its other peoples decision. How we influence that person is the key me thinks!
If you influence the person positively you should get a positive reaction right? Riddle me this....
What if that person is an asshole?
Fighting fire with fire never works....apparently. Fighting fire with positivity is difficult. Im aware that the person is an AH and Im aware that the person needs to be tip toed around but I still want results damn it!
I gotta think more about how to tackle this person positively. Il post more soon.
They re-released all the Beatles albums....Awesome!
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Something to choose from
After a long morning of searching the net for lifes answers I have come to a stop. There is too many sites that are built to point you in a direction but still tell you you would be a good dog groomer!
Eventually I just wrote down all the skills I believe I have. It was around 15 or so. After that I rated them between 1-10 on how important they were to me. I thought about it a little and then eliminated anything below 5. Thought about it some more and eliminated anything below 8 and I was left with 8 skills I know I can use. I know that seems awfully simple but I really took the time to consider each option. We think a lot about ourselves dont we!
I think people fool themselves into believing that they are something they are not. We have/ I have fantastic views of myself/ourselves. The more I think about it the more "awareness" seems to be the key in finding one's self. Aware of who you really are and what you really can do. Being realistic is something I find hard to do. Jesus I still daydream all the time of silly situations that I come out on top on.
I have a very active imagination.
When I really think about it going back to college isnt in my grasp at this time. As much as I imagine being there and getting down to it I have left it too late to apply this year. I imagine the situations and get obsessed with it. Realistically I cant afford too either. Im aware Im broke and Im aware I left it too late so I need to stop daydreaming about it.
Can you be a daydreamer and realistic at the same time? I guess i could use my active imagination to create a path to follow but being a millionaire by 25 is out of the question unless I win the lotto. ha.....wait.......maybe I could think of a lotto scheme........Stop, stop, stop!! Get back imagination!! Down boy.
Eventually I just wrote down all the skills I believe I have. It was around 15 or so. After that I rated them between 1-10 on how important they were to me. I thought about it a little and then eliminated anything below 5. Thought about it some more and eliminated anything below 8 and I was left with 8 skills I know I can use. I know that seems awfully simple but I really took the time to consider each option. We think a lot about ourselves dont we!
I think people fool themselves into believing that they are something they are not. We have/ I have fantastic views of myself/ourselves. The more I think about it the more "awareness" seems to be the key in finding one's self. Aware of who you really are and what you really can do. Being realistic is something I find hard to do. Jesus I still daydream all the time of silly situations that I come out on top on.
I have a very active imagination.
When I really think about it going back to college isnt in my grasp at this time. As much as I imagine being there and getting down to it I have left it too late to apply this year. I imagine the situations and get obsessed with it. Realistically I cant afford too either. Im aware Im broke and Im aware I left it too late so I need to stop daydreaming about it.
Can you be a daydreamer and realistic at the same time? I guess i could use my active imagination to create a path to follow but being a millionaire by 25 is out of the question unless I win the lotto. ha.....wait.......maybe I could think of a lotto scheme........Stop, stop, stop!! Get back imagination!! Down boy.
The first of many
Wow, seems a little daunting setting up a blog but I have been putting it off for too long. For those who will visit my blog welcome.
Im setting off on a big "discover myself" journey and I want to share it. I work for a retail company that I hate, not on a "god I 'f' ing hate all of this" but Im being treated like a dog and I believe in myself more than that.
Im setting out to discover who I am and what I can achieve. Its hard you know. Im 23 and I have come to a cross-roads on my life. I feel like I need to act now before I get lost and have no purpose. Where do you start with self discovery? I read today that to understand who you are you have to find your purpose and to find your purpose you must understand reality......young grasshopper....
What I took from it was that you must understand your own reality, find where you belong in you're own life. Purpose is direction, decision and concious awareness of the decisions you make. If you make subconscious decisions I believe you might end up in a place you dont recognise and have no idea how you got there.
Im a man who has always landed on my feet in what ever direction I jumped in. This time Im trying to pick where to land and its not easy. I have to make some serious decisions - go back to college? take on a new career? become a working drone? fill my life with money? Picking what to do for the rest of you're life is no easy decision.
"Well why dont you get up off your ass and do something" I hear you ask! Well I plan on some serious searching tomorrow/today(its late here) Il will let you know of my findings......
Isnt it "pirate day" today or something?
Im setting off on a big "discover myself" journey and I want to share it. I work for a retail company that I hate, not on a "god I 'f' ing hate all of this" but Im being treated like a dog and I believe in myself more than that.
Im setting out to discover who I am and what I can achieve. Its hard you know. Im 23 and I have come to a cross-roads on my life. I feel like I need to act now before I get lost and have no purpose. Where do you start with self discovery? I read today that to understand who you are you have to find your purpose and to find your purpose you must understand reality......young grasshopper....
What I took from it was that you must understand your own reality, find where you belong in you're own life. Purpose is direction, decision and concious awareness of the decisions you make. If you make subconscious decisions I believe you might end up in a place you dont recognise and have no idea how you got there.
Im a man who has always landed on my feet in what ever direction I jumped in. This time Im trying to pick where to land and its not easy. I have to make some serious decisions - go back to college? take on a new career? become a working drone? fill my life with money? Picking what to do for the rest of you're life is no easy decision.
"Well why dont you get up off your ass and do something" I hear you ask! Well I plan on some serious searching tomorrow/today(its late here) Il will let you know of my findings......
Isnt it "pirate day" today or something?
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