Full of it

Im nicely settled in now. Haven't been up to much except working and some of the places I have been in have been pretty cool. Im working in a company called "Hotel Staff" In a nut shell a person needs extra help in their kitchen/restaurant/ball room/multi-million Jewish house, they call my boss, they ask for "X" amount of people, my boss rings said "X" amount and we go to that place and help out. Its freaking easy and I usually get fed. Smile, take your time and talk nice. Couldn't be simpler. I clean tables, serve wine clean up, all that stuff. The getting fed part is my favorite, that and the getting to see cool places.

My first day i worked at a cocktail party on the 33rd floor of a multi-story building. The view was amazing. I could see the whole way across the city and the sun was setting. Last week I worked in the kitchen of the mazda HQ. Got to see advertisement plans that aren't out yet plus some design plans. This week I was in the BMW HQ and I got to see a prototype of a new BMW that wont be on the production lines until late next year and it had a new fancy V8 engine that still isn't out of its 2nd BETA faze (not to sure about what they call the different stages of engine making so BETA will have to do) Yesterday I worked in a million dollar house for a Jewish family celebrating the Jewish new year. MY GOD it was fancy. Filthy rich fancy. Indoor swimming pool, tennis court, 3 kitchens, silver everything, 200 dollar wine and so on. What struck me most about last night was that even tho these people were SURROUNDED by luxury there was still a huge felling of a close family. It was nice to see that endless amounts of money didn't effect the closeness the family had. It made me miss home.

This new job has me thinking a lot. Im sure a lot of people out there, including myself, get nervous on the first day or two of their new job. You don't know the people, your not too sure what exactly you are supposed to be doing, when will you get fed and so on. You know, first day jitters. Every day in this job is that first day. You need to believe that you can do it and you are always in somewhere new. It made me start thinking about self belief.

People have a hard time believing in themselves. Some people rely on others, some on themselves and some get it from both. Ive seen people crippled, again myself, by relying completely on another person for belief. Ive seen belief come from nothing, everything and anyone. Iv learned something over the last year. I believe in myself. I believe in myself, my family and my friends. I believe that if you want others to believe in you you have to have some of that spark in yourself. The more I believe in me the more others react to my belief, the more I have in myself the more I share with others. A big old loop.

What I want to get at is that if you are feeling down or a bit out of yourself remember who you are. Remember to believe in yourself, remember where you came from and who your friends are, remember your family, remember easy days and long nights, remember your heros and remember your mentors. There is ALWAYS belief in you, you just have to remember it and it will help you do anything.

Redman out.

On a lighter note fell free to count how many times I said believe, believing or belief. ha